gorgonzola
over it all
- Nov 18, 2019
- 12
do you ever hear about a tragic death and wish it was you? like there have been a couple of devastating ones over the years (like Kobe and his daughter etc) and every single time it happens I kinda feel bad that my first thought is "that's so terrible, it should've been me?" i feel kinda selfish and childish at times but every day of my life i'm fantasizing about ctb and I hate that people who do amazing things in and for the world have to die suddenly and tragically when there's people like me who want nothing more than to die of natural causes. and I'll probably do it myself (I hope soon) but my family and friends at least have something/someone to be mad at that's not me for doing it myself. I don't know if this makes sense but yeah