marabellasol
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- Nov 4, 2023
- 32
I can't tell if I'm actually suicidal or not - I have long parts where i just want to die and then shorter moments where living isnt so bad, maybe my brain is just wrong and everything is okay with me lol
i also toy with the idea of becoming a neet. life would suck but at least i could rot in peace, alone.I am happy when i'm not forced to act like an adult and have responsabilities, i'm a leech, i have to deal with the horrible self image and low perception people have of me though, which is something that bothers me a lot. But the worse part is when i have to work and deal with people, then the psychologial distress becomes unberable. The day when i can't carry like this is getting closer though, if I could live like a NEET maybe i would give life a chance.
That's just how I feel!I am happy when i'm not forced to act like an adult and have responsabilities, i'm a leech, i have to deal with the horrible self image and low perception people have of me though, which is something that bothers me a lot. But the worse part is when i have to work and deal with people, then the psychologial distress becomes unberable. The day when i can't carryon like this anymore is getting closer though, if I could live like a NEET maybe i would give life a chance.