do you ever find things interfering with ctb plans like a sign

[uselessflesh]

i think twice now i've been stopped by forces completely oblivious to my plans.

the first was years ago when i considered jumping in front of a car and a cat walked up to me, nuzzled against me and let me pet it a lot, i stopped crying and went home thinking about that

something also happened last night when i made a new friend who invited me to play a game just after i cut myself and was thinking hard about how i was going to go about ctb which really took me out of it

things like this don't really happen in my day to day life, so the timing makes it kind of eerie. does anything similar happen to anyone else and see it as a sort of sign to "stay", like maybe something needs you? i wish it didn't take my pondering death for good things to finally happen to me

 

[Edu Ardanuy]

It might happen, you know. there's a lot of things that happens and we can't explain. Well, I have been feeling suicide, even bought SN (And received the package), no signs at sight to stop my plan so far, so I'll take that, according to your logic, if there aren't any 'signs', that means its really meant to happen too, the suicide.