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Beachedwhale
Mage
- Mar 3, 2021
- 526
I am constantly playing out in my mind how I will ctb. Its like a video of my method on repeat constantly. Beachy head constantly in my mind and sometimes drinking SN. It gives me relief and it's completely taken over. Everything around and inside me triggers me and the thought of ctb is always at hand to provide relief. I am exhausted and feel trapped. I feel that I am coming closer and closer to the end, but I cant quite get there due to the prospect of salvaging a life. I am an asymptote.
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