Mooshi

Mooshi

Across space and across time, I will be there.
Jan 13, 2020
205
I hate leaving my house so very much. It makes me feel so much worse and makes me want to ctb so much more in that moment. I don't even feel much of anything anymore.

My family members try to get me to leave the house, thinking it'll do something; but they're so wrong.

I'm just wasting time until my date, filling my life with pointless things. I already know I'm going to ctb, it's my inevitable fate.

God, I hate being alive so much.
 
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terry_a_davis

terry_a_davis

Warlock
Dec 28, 2019
707
You say you hate it, why? Anxiety?
 
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Mooshi

Mooshi

Across space and across time, I will be there.
Jan 13, 2020
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ssaaahmo

ssaaahmo

Experienced
May 18, 2020
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i feel the same way
i'm scared of leaving the house because i don't want to be around people
i like nature but it's too much otherwise
too many people and too much noise and too much confusion and too much to deal with
 
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BlackPoppet

BlackPoppet

Wise woman and Celtic sky person
Mar 7, 2020
991
I hate leaving the house too! I had agoraphobia at one point. I would literally have a panic attack at my front door. I have a sleeping disorder and having to leave my house when I hadn't slept for 3-4 nights was torture. I can only leave the house if I have beta blockers, CBD oil or Diazepam. It's a nightmare. I have severe anxiety too, and that makes it all so much more difficult.
 
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SpottedPanda

SpottedPanda

I'm all about coffee and cigarettes
Jul 24, 2019
612
I hate leaving the house due to anxiety and general unease. I feel like I'm being watched, and inside I'm very socially awkward. Sometimes taking the bins out is too much.
 
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SHThrowAway213

SHThrowAway213

That's the hell I live with
Apr 19, 2018
658
I get very paranoid because of my ptsd
 
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Mooshi

Mooshi

Across space and across time, I will be there.
Jan 13, 2020
205
i feel the same way
i'm scared of leaving the house because i don't want to be around people
i like nature but it's too much otherwise
too many people and too much noise and too much confusion and too much to deal with

Yes! I feel the same

I hate leaving the house too! I had agoraphobia at one point. I would literally have a panic attack at my front door. I have a sleeping disorder and having to leave my house when I hadn't slept for 3-4 nights was torture. I can only leave the house if I have beta blockers, CBD oil or Diazepam. It's a nightmare. I have severe anxiety too, and that makes it all so much more difficult.

I'm sorry about that, that sounds awful. I have super super bad social anxiety and can only really deal with it if I also take some medication.

I hate leaving the house due to anxiety and general unease. I feel like I'm being watched, and inside I'm very socially awkward. Sometimes taking the bins out is too much.

Me too.
 
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BlackPoppet

BlackPoppet

Wise woman and Celtic sky person
Mar 7, 2020
991
Yes! I feel the same



I'm sorry about that, that sounds awful. I have super super bad social anxiety and can only really deal with it if I also take some medication.



Me too.
Well you are free to PM me if you need a friendly ear. I know what you are going through and I'm here for you. Hugs :hug:
 
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SHThrowAway213

SHThrowAway213

That's the hell I live with
Apr 19, 2018
658
me too, i have ptsd too
I get paranoid in the day because theres too many people about, I get paranoid at night because my first traumas happened in the dark, I can't win
 
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meetapple

meetapple

Mage
Jun 3, 2021
582
I hate leaving the house too. I am not afraid of social interaction mostly but I tend to get stereotyped by people and they tend To misunderstand me as a troublemaker when in fact I am just a non conformist. I usually only leave the house when I have to and usually come back feeling angry.
 
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