Venting cunts in my room - I feel murderous (psych ward)

[LittleJem]

So today they searched my room and found a screwdriver I was trying to get out through the window.

Now the facilities people are in my room refitting the screws and I can honestly say I feel murderous. I cannot over-emphasise enough how much I hate this place and these nurses. I fucking hate them.

This is totally pointless. The medication is not helping me. I won't be giving up drugs when I leave because I love drugs.

It is all invasive and demeaning and absolutely fucking pointless.

I have not really felt murderous before but right now I absolutely do.

 

[sancta-simplicitas]

So sorry to hear about your distress. It's completely valid, psych wards are not kind environments. Being locked in and deprived of privacy could make anyone kick into fight-and-flight-mode. Is there anything you know of that could help distract you?

 

[LittleJem]

So sorry to hear about your distress. It's completely valid, psych wards are not kind environments. Being locked in and deprived of privacy could make anyone kick into fight-and-flight-mode. Is there anything you know of that could help distract you?

Thank you. Don't know. Kick a ball in the garden. Chat to people. But really, my depression is here as usual (though the psychiatrist diagnosed me with bipolar mania but that is not true, I just use drugs for my depression). So with the depression and no weed it is just nasty. I can read a book etc and lucky to have my laptop here, but my mind is just as mopey as ever and this is a pointless stay. I will be straight back on drugs when I am out of here. Everybody knows it. So why lock me up for all this time.

Thanks for your kind words

 

[Hollowman]

Why lock you up for a long time? It's very profitable to them.

 

[LittleJem]

That's exactly what it is. It is all about the money