Sarros
Member
- Sep 2, 2021
- 99
I can't stop measuring my life compared to others. I can't stop thinking about what I don't have when I see people that have it. When I see people out on dates it upsets me.
Lately I've been trying to think about positives in my day and my life to try yo distract me but that's all it is. I can't rewire my brain to not want such basic, human social interactions/contracts. I don't know how my friends manage to be so happy on their own. They are seemingly completely fulfilled with their own hobbies and being by themselves. It's so alien to me. 5 minutes by myself and I have to actively keep my mind from suicidal ideation and active planning.
Lately I've been trying to think about positives in my day and my life to try yo distract me but that's all it is. I can't rewire my brain to not want such basic, human social interactions/contracts. I don't know how my friends manage to be so happy on their own. They are seemingly completely fulfilled with their own hobbies and being by themselves. It's so alien to me. 5 minutes by myself and I have to actively keep my mind from suicidal ideation and active planning.
