Venting coming to terms with the fact that i'm different

[Sadocan]

recently, i have been feeling less hateful towards myself. I have become less harsh and judgemental, and I have stopped hurting myself ( at least, on purpose). I stopped indulging in thoughts that cause me pain. (negative emotions never motivated me). every time i feel any kind of negative emotion, i tell myself that it's because i am different from others. i don't know if i'm autistic, or if i have any other conditions, but i'm highly suspicious of it. i realized that a lot of the bad events that surround me everyday have some kind of a turnaround, or remedy. i noticed that i've been sabotaging myself and putting the blame on these awful events that happened to me in the past. everytime a bad thing happened, i always turned it into two bad things by sabotaging myself on top of it. but now, i'm distancing myself from that mindset, and i'm glad

 

[orpheus_]

I'm glad you are accepting yourself for it!! There's nothing inherently wrong with being different, though it can make your life difficult in a society made for an "average" person. No need to beat yourself up, it's good you're being nicer to yourself. Sending hugs <3

 

[nocatwaslost]

Happy to hear that you are making progress. In the past weeks I have been trying to be more compassionate and easy towards myself, especially when feeling lonely or down. Especially when there is no one to comfort yourself, one itself has to step in and be that soothing voice.