Ardesevent
It’s the end of the line, cowboy
- Feb 2, 2020
- 358
I don't get enjoyment from anything anymore. Video games, TV, books, everything. I picked up an exercise routine to help me get my life back on track and started eating healthier too, but I'm not feeling any happier.
I didn't feel happy at all before, but at least I could lose myself in something. Now I'm constantly reminded of the fact I'm housebound, my body is completely falling apart, and even though I'm still young enough to make changes, I don't know how to. I've gotten the same advice over and over again, but I'm just too socially inept for any of it to work.
I think I'll finally CTB soon, out of desperation. I can't stand this cycle for another month until college starts back up again, and I'll just be as sick of college and want to go back to this as soon as I start it again. I don't have anything to look forward to anymore.
I didn't feel happy at all before, but at least I could lose myself in something. Now I'm constantly reminded of the fact I'm housebound, my body is completely falling apart, and even though I'm still young enough to make changes, I don't know how to. I've gotten the same advice over and over again, but I'm just too socially inept for any of it to work.
I think I'll finally CTB soon, out of desperation. I can't stand this cycle for another month until college starts back up again, and I'll just be as sick of college and want to go back to this as soon as I start it again. I don't have anything to look forward to anymore.