Ardesevent

Ardesevent

It’s the end of the line, cowboy
Feb 2, 2020
358
I don't get enjoyment from anything anymore. Video games, TV, books, everything. I picked up an exercise routine to help me get my life back on track and started eating healthier too, but I'm not feeling any happier.
I didn't feel happy at all before, but at least I could lose myself in something. Now I'm constantly reminded of the fact I'm housebound, my body is completely falling apart, and even though I'm still young enough to make changes, I don't know how to. I've gotten the same advice over and over again, but I'm just too socially inept for any of it to work.
I think I'll finally CTB soon, out of desperation. I can't stand this cycle for another month until college starts back up again, and I'll just be as sick of college and want to go back to this as soon as I start it again. I don't have anything to look forward to anymore.
 
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ocd is bad

ocd is bad

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Jun 26, 2020
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I'm exactly the same. I have nothing to look forward to, I'm just running out the clock at this point. I've also become really jaded and don't enjoy things the way I used to. I know exactly what you mean man.
 
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AlreadyGone

AlreadyGone

Taking it day by day
Jan 11, 2020
917
Same here. I no longer enjoy any of my hobbies anymore. I just dont find any enjoyment in life.
 
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Bauhaus

Bauhaus

Specialist
Jan 18, 2020
388
Severe apathy/anhedonia might be one of the main reasons to quit life.
In the past I enjoyed programming, 3D moddeling and playing games but now it's impossible to focus on them and they don't give me pleasure anymore (rather frustration).
I basically spend all day long watching movies & series, it's passive and a easy form of escapism.
 
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Notmadeforthislife

Member
Jul 12, 2020
31
Same here. I can't think of anything to do that I would truly enjoy. I have no hobbies. I don't have any close friends. My only escape is sleep. At least then I don't have to be aware of what's going on around me and I can briefly forget my troubles. The only thing I look forward to is sleep.
 
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Deleted member 19654

Deleted member 19654

Working towards recovery.
Jul 9, 2020
1,628
It hurts how much I can relate to the posts on this thread lol. Not got much going for me so I might as well ctb so I can finally be happy and at peace
 
Deleted member 17949

Deleted member 17949

Visionary
May 9, 2020
2,238
Same. I believe it's called anhedonia when this happens. Total lack of enjoyment with previously enjoyable things so life just loses it's taste.
 

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