Briefly list all the problems that have led you here.

[Close_to_freedom]

- childhood abuse which led to depression, ptsd, ocd, avoidant personality disorder

- digestive problems and acid reflux that causes a chronic cough

-never fit in well with most people and don't really like people in general. I see their weak points and flaws.

 

[SpottedPanda]

My main things are schizophrenia, which has led to some cognitive decline, and the medication for schizophrenia, which has led to a sort of desensitisation of my sense of self, and life experience.

 

[Soul]

1. Being taught I had failed to be enough keep my mother from killing herself, plus physical abuse 2. A history of depression & anxiety 3. A terminal illness that isn't courteous enough to be quick about it

 

[EmbraceOfTheVoid]

-Abuse, bullying, war as a child which has lead to various trauma symptoms.
-Fibromyalgia
-Disabled for life so I will never have a income/home.
-Can't relate to "normal" people; the things they want or value.
-No real forms of help out there.

Edit: Pro-lifers also brought me here, forgot that one, thanks again guys.

 

[Chiyuki99]

-simply realising that life isn't worth it
(short, carefree childhood/ education until the age of 18 to 25/work 5 days a week until you're 65/15 years left to live before you die)

 

[dysfunctional]

Suddenly having bipolar 1 disorder at age 33. Then the terrible aftermath of mania. I ca't deal with all the things I did.

 

[TowerUpright]

Verbal and mental abuse from mother as a child.

Trying to be someone else through my formative years.

Bad decisions that end up being permanent, simply because I say no and need to please people.

Realizing all the opportunities I missed, just because I couldn't be myself.

Marrying people simply because I didn't want to be alone (twice..)

In short, regrets.

 

[ItsAllTooLate]

My main things are traumatic brain injuries and PTSD resulting from childhood physical, sexual, verbal abuse.

I just started recently being suicidal again directly because I fucked up my best relationship, but I'm pretty sure I wouldn't have done what I did if I didn't possess the lack of judgment that comes with having TBIs. So it still goes back to my first point.

 

[stillweary]

I feel like God himself set me up for a pointless life of cruel and sadistic betrayal. There was no point to any of it, and even if he finally lays off of me and let's me finish my life, there's nothing left that could possibly make up for how unnecessarily cruel and sadistic he has been to me this far. Even the best case scenario for my future will never make any of this worth it.

 

[Aonewayticketplease]

Being forced to put up with crappy and thoroughly annoying people, told that they were the good guys.

Economic, verbal, physical and mental abuse.

 

[Deleted member 17949]

-Ugly face

-Poor social development leading to constant loneliness and a hard time connecting with people

-No intelligence

-Mild bulling causing poor self esteem

-Unable to find any hobbies that I can fully enjoy

 

[Philosykos]

- lifelong emotional and eventual physical abandonment by family
- trans with all repercussions of such in the past (not fitting in, bullied, complete estrangement from family etc) and at this stage in my transition feeling pretty confident that 'passing' will be nigh impossible, will require a ton of surgical procedures I'll never be able to afford and won't do anything to help me get rid of my impostor syndrome.
- becoming a massive recluse and daydreaming my life away, therefore accomplishing nothing whatsoever.
- depression and anxiety coupled with a very self destructive mind that I'm pretty sure will literally drive me insane if given the time.
- but most importantly: just not being able to care about myself or my life in any meaningful way.

 

[TAW122]

These are just some of mine (in no particular order)

-Aspergers and poor childhood upbringing, narcissistic parents
-Knowing that my looks are bad which affects social interaction, how people treat me, and unsuccessful in the romance and dating world.
-Pro-life society that shuns on topics of suicide, death, and euthanasia (and more).
-Unfulfilled dreams and hobbies
-Philosophical and personal reasons

 

[TimeToBiteTheDust]

1. Health issues / chronic pain
2. University failure.
3. Never had a girlfriend
4. Existential crisis and nihilism (it's seems like life is pointless now. Everything we do since we wake up till we go to sleep points to NOTHING)
5. I'm too depressed because I couldn't achieve what I wanted. There are days I don't want to get out of my bed because of depression and I hate when people say we are just lazy. They don't understand.
6. I love the idea of choosing when and how to die
7. It think the world is not a good place to be nowadays. So I'm not missing anything if I ctb.
8. Many mistakes I can't reverse and are stuck in my mind. Like a trauma. Everyday. I'm kinda perfectionist and it's difficult for me to cope with things I can't improve.

The only things that keep me alive are my family/friends, my job and music. But I want to be dead... I think I'm a waste of potential and I can't live with that. I want to transform my depression into music. Translate all what is inside my head. I wish the best to all people here Live as much as you can with your problems till it's enough and then that's your decision and I respect it.

 

[Meena]

A difficult childhood in a war zone
I got divorced and i am seperated from my son who lives in another country with his father as a result of my bipolar disorder.
Do not fit in society and i don't want to.

 

[Close_to_freedom]

These are just some of mine (in no particular order)

-Aspergers and poor childhood upbringing, narcissistic parents
-Knowing that my looks are bad which affects social interaction, how people treat me, and unsuccessful in the romance and dating world.
-Pro-life society that shuns on topics of suicide, death, and euthanasia (and more).
-Unfulfilled dreams and hobbies
-Philosophical and personal reasons

Yeah looks are a big reason. I was good looking once. Then I went bald and only get positive reactions from people when I wear a beanie.

 

[k3v3r]

I can't function because i'm constantly living in past trauma

 

[FadingAway]

Psychosis and antipsychotics

 

[disconnection]

Hm okay, I'll try..
- Deep rooted feelings of emptiness and lack of connection with others from a young age
- Emotional abuse as a child and an adult
- Unable to stick at things job-wise - the initial enthusiasm decends rapidly into debilitating obsession.. Made worse by the fact I aced school and uni and people always expected great things from me
- Being a burden on family (homeless and reliant on them)
- Relationship breakdown
- Perhaps the most important - I have no sense of who I am at all

 

[Poptart]

Childhood abuse
PTSD, Bipolar 1, borderline personality
Graduated with a prelaw degree but cant go to law school because of my mental health. Leaving me with a useless degree.
School and medical debt
No friends
Unstable family
Always 2nd choice with the people I date
Overall failure as a person

 

[Life sucks]

Life sucks

 

[glittergore]

From another thread:
-Severe mental health problems (Bipolar, OCD, GAD, paranoia)
- Hatred and fear of my body
- Limited capacity to survive in society, hatred of society
- Personal incompatibility with my passions, as in, the things I love are not attainable in the way I want them to be
- Improbability that I will ever be the person I want to be and therefore an insurmountable self-hatred/dissatisfaction
- A rosy view towards suicide, finally being able to find some freedom and power, giving my life meaning through my death

 

[ERASED]

My mom having bad choice to have concieve me from a low life man that didn't want her and now I have to bear all the regret of me being born from her.

 

[favourite]

- being too stupid to get a decent job
- being unattractive and unloved
- growing frustration that can't be fixed

 

[AnxietyAttack44]

My husband died. My son and 3 daughters died before they managed to get born (quadriplets), because of me getting sick and stressed after my husband died.

 

[Finally_Free]

Old traumas and other complex layers that make me feel anxious 24x7 and not able to enjoy life.

 

[Ardesevent]

-bullying as a child
-kept being abandoned by friends
-really bad social anxiety
-paranoia
-becoming a neet, not by choice. I can't leave the house without panicking now.

 

[SSlostallhope]

Mental abuse as a child
Moved out at 17 and got with a psychical and emotional abuser. Stayed with him for a very long time as he ran me down so far I thought very little of myself.
dad dying
Taking an overdose and being diagnosed with a ' mood disorder'
Mum dying
Depression , anxiety , social agoraphobia
No friends
Debt

 

[sadghost]

- Childhood neglect
- Dysfunctional family
- Bullying
- Never fitting in
- Eating Disorder
- Body dysmorphia
- ADD
- I find everything about life overwhelming
- Existential dread
- No interests, hobbies, motivation

 

[DeathNoot]

1. AVPD

That's it lol that's the list. All of my issues are encompassed by that