Biggest fear about SN

[cursedbynature64]

My biggest fear about SN is that survival instincts will kick in after already taking it, and I will call for help. Getting forced into a psychiatric hospital would be an absolute nightmare for me, not to mention the other consequences that would result from a failed ctb attempt.

Logically I know that failing would put me in a significantly worse place than I am now (having never attempted and people in my life don't suspect I'm considering it). But I know that human survival instinct is a very powerful force.

I haven't even ordered SN and I'm already overthinking things.

 

[divinemistress36]

I share your concerns to

 

[CantDoIt]

Yeah same! So much time for regret to sit in. Overthinking seems to be a popular pastime amongst those of us who are suicidal.

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

My biggest fear about SN is that survival instincts will kick in after already taking it, and I will call for help. Getting forced into a psychiatric hospital would be an absolute nightmare for me, not to mention the other consequences that would result from a failed ctb attempt.

Logically I know that failing would put me in a significantly worse place than I am now (having never attempted and people in my life don't suspect I'm considering it). But I know that human survival instinct is a very powerful force.

I haven't even ordered SN and I'm already overthinking things.

Same

 

[FuneralCry]

Trying to die going wrong is also what I'd personally fear, I'm sorry you have to suffer in this cruel existence, personally I just wish suicide is as straightforward as choosing to never wake again. But anyway I wish you all the best.

 

[nasigoreng99]

My biggest fear about SN is that survival instincts will kick in after already taking it, and I will call for help. Getting forced into a psychiatric hospital would be an absolute nightmare for me, not to mention the other consequences that would result from a failed ctb attempt.

Logically I know that failing would put me in a significantly worse place than I am now (having never attempted and people in my life don't suspect I'm considering it). But I know that human survival instinct is a very powerful force.

I haven't even ordered SN and I'm already overthinking things.

You are not alone, my friend

 

[nihilistic_dragon]

Yeah, the whole process of ctb-ing with SN just seems so daunting to me. My plan is to try to find N. But if I do not succeed, SN is my plan b. Not looking forward to it at all tbh.

 

[ctbusser]

Just make sure nobody will have time to save you, go far enough from people and hospitals.

 

[Msvr]

I'm planning on doing the inert gas method soon, but if that fails for some reason I have also already ordered SN. Waiting for it to arrive. My plan was to buy one of those phone lock boxes that you stick your phone in and set a timer for 1 hour. Then you can't call for help even if you want. You may still be close enough to others though, like if you live with others or are in an apartment complex. But could be a solution for some. Or drive somewhere remote without your phone. This way you can't get help in time even if you want.

 

[esistzeit]

Yeah same! So much time for regret to sit in. Overthinking seems to be a popular pastime amongst those of us who are suicidal.

So much time to prepare too. 10 hours of no food, then another hour of sitting still after taking the pills just going through 1000 reasons why you needn't do it today...

 

[MentalFuneral]

I wonder if driving to some very rural forest and doing it in your car would work