In the US getting benzos legally is such a pain in the ass. I get crippling panic attacks on the regular, even had one in an appointment with my psych doc and they are still hesitant to prescribe them. I have only ever managed to get low dose Klonopin, and it's mostly useless for its intended purposes, much less as a method or support.
Hello friend.
I am amazed to know that in the US is difficult to get a benzo prescription, here in Europe benzos are easily prescribed by doctors; I was used to think that in the US you can buy everything if you have the money to pay.
By the way, kill yourself using only benzos is very much hard to achieve, due to the high security margin these meds have.
If what worries you now is to control your panic attacks, and you can not get benzos legally, you have the option to search on the internet or go for a natural sedative you can grow in your land:
Lactuca Virosa. This plant is called "wild lettuce" too, and in the past farmacist was making "lactucario" with it, that is a sedative and painkiller made by the concentrated juice of the plant. Lactucario is a quite potent thing and need a lot of leaves of the plant to make it, but you can try to make "tea" with a handfull of fresh leaves or smoking it like a cigarette, and this 100% natural and non addictive sedative maybe can help you. Is a medicinal plant very well knowed
Sorry for my english, I still learning.
