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Yorkshire91
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- Aug 30, 2019
- 84
I spend the majority of my time alone with all the mental shite, even when I'm with people I feel so alone. I've made attempts before on my own yet when I think about it part of me really doesn't want to be alone when it happens. I know I will be as it's the only way and it makes me so fucking angry. Why should anyone have to be alone in their last moments, why can't anyone understand and comfort us in our exit. I know there's the legal and moral aspects and I'd never ask anyone to be there it wouldn't be fair I accept this. In an ideal world I would lay in the arms of my love fall asleep and drift away. The reality of it will be me alone in my car parked in a dark secluded spot, our society really needs a long hard look at itself when people are forced to go through this. I'm really sorry for waffling and being long winded about this. Everything I've had to bottle up is bursting out most of which I dont even understand. Wish I could make sense of this. Sorry if I've wasted your time with this, thank you for giving me a platform to get this out.