Anyone else stay alive because you just want at least one deep connection with someone?

[Weebster]

Death takes that possibility away forever.

 

[onlyanimalsaregood]

Nowadays nobody wants a thrue connection with anybody. It is an illusion. It's all very superficial and easy. It's not worth the suffering.

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

That's part of why I'm holding out until later this year (and have been doing so since late 2020). Unfortunately the odds for this happening to me and ending well are nowhere near in my favor (1 in 14,000,605) but that's something only each individual can really determine for themselves. Maybe something can happen for me in the next few months but even if I knew for sure that something was definitely going to turn out good for me in 5 years I'd pass on it because I have no more patience and I'm sick of having to wait.

 

[Weebster]

Nowadays nobody wants a thrue connection with anybody. It is an illusion. It's all very superficial and easy. It's not worth the suffering.

How come other people don't crave it? Why do I crave it then?

 

[Treeline589]

I was staying alive because I had that deep connection with my therapist. Today was my last appointment, not by my choice. Going to CTB soon.

 

[Weebster]

I was staying alive because I had that deep connection with my therapist. Today was my last appointment, not by my choice. Going to CTB soon.

A once a week, non-romantic connection was enough for you?

 

[Treeline589]

A once a week, non-romantic connection was enough for you?

yea, apparently it was for a while

 

[Weebster]

yea, apparently it was for a while

Thats good. I've had that. I had one therapist I saw every day for several weeks. It was an unusual setup. Anyway I cried at the end because I suddenly had no one in my life.

 

[Al Cappella]

No. I'm staying alive to see Germany win another World Cup, or the Bills finally win the Super Bowl. Probably means I'm dying of natural causes…

 

[Fadeawaaaay]

I've had those deep connections and they were lovely. I'm too broken now. I want to sleep and not wake up. I wish the misery were poison enough to end me.

 

[lyles]

I am staying alive for those connections more than seeking them. I do think they are possible to achieve, though, everyone is so lonely nowadays...

 

[ArcherFiles44]

How come other people don't crave it? Why do I crave it then?

I had it and lost it

 

[ornitier199]

Nowadays nobody wants a thrue connection with anybody. It is an illusion. It's all very superficial and easy. It's not worth the suffering.

Yep. I'm only alive because my project hasn't been completely taken away from me yet.
But it's getting dangerously close.

 

[SuicidallyCurious]

No

Because deep connections don't last either

You will die

 

[DunnoWhyButYeah]

I had it and lost it

Same.

 

[TakeMeBack07]

never say never, but i believe it's highly unlikely to happen to me. I believe things like that require a lot of effort and waiting, and even hope? Personally, overall, it's not worth enduring and struggling for, but if you think it is, you do you.

 

[sharky]

Yes. It has happened before but not anymore. People just seem to care about themselves.

 

[BrokenLine]

For me its not just about a deep connection or romantic connection its about a meaningful connection. Someone who makes you push yourself for your own sake who makes you realize you want to do more in and with life it motivates you to say fuck it I'll try anything, see what happens. for me I had that her name was Katie and lost it. because I'm a socially awkward idiot, who has a hard time expressing myself.

 

[Red Scare]

For me its not just about a deep connection or romantic connection its about a meaningful connection. Someone who makes you push yourself for your own sake who makes you realize you want to do more in and with life it motivates you to say fuck it I'll try anything, see what happens. for me I had that her name was Katie and lost it. because I'm a socially awkward idiot, who has a hard time expressing myself.

That was my husband. I lost him too, and it is the main reason I want to ctb

 

[myopybyproxy]

That's part of why I'm holding out until later this year (and have been doing so since late 2020). Unfortunately the odds for this happening to me and ending well are nowhere near in my favor (1 in 14,000,605) but that's something only each individual can really determine for themselves. Maybe something can happen for me in the next few months but even if I knew for sure that something was definitely going to turn out good for me in 5 years I'd pass on it because I have no more patience and I'm sick of having to wait.

How did you get that number? Curious - it seems so random.

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

How did you get that number? Curious - it seems so random.

It's a reference to that scene from Avengers Infinity War. Sorry. I know it's a bit too normie but eh.



Also I'm sorry for exaggerating. I know the real number is likely to actually be around 1 in 50 million. I determined this one based on my own experiences in the past with breaking my stubbornness.

 

[Wildwolf]

Para mí no se trata solo de una conexión profunda o una conexión romántica, se trata de una conexión significativa. Alguien que te haga esforzarte por tu propio bien, que te haga darte cuenta de que quieres hacer más en la vida y que te motive a decir joder, intentaré cualquier cosa, a ver qué pasa. para mí tenía que su nombre era Katie y lo perdí. porque soy un idiota socialmente torpe, que tiene dificultades para expresarse.

Creo que una de las principales razones por las que no lo he intentado aún es por esa conexión que tengo con alguien que amo mucho. De igual manera me apena mucho que esa persona deba cargar conmigo. A veces mi apatía es tan grande que no puedo disfrutar ni siquiera del amor que me brinda. Creo que eso es lo más doloroso, porque es injusto para él

 

[solisoccasus]

I think it's one in a million to really have a deep connection with someone coz in order for both persons to have that, one ahould be able to understand fully what the other person is saying even without saying it and that's where it begins. It's not easy to have that and form that kind of bond with someone. But yes, sometimes i just want to have that but i don't know if someone out there would want that with me.

 

[plough22]

I hope to see one person before I die, that's it abd I can die anytime, just say goodbye, I'll love and protect you but I feel that I will be pushed and I'll end it, once it's done right, have all the material, rather N but it's the world, makes it extremely hard on those who have enough

 

[myopybyproxy]

It's a reference to that scene from Avengers Infinity War. Sorry. I know it's a bit too normie but eh.



Also I'm sorry for exaggerating. I know the real number is likely to actually be around 1 in 50 million. I determined this one based on my own experiences in the past with breaking my stubbornness.

I see. I don't understand why it's normie. I don't understand the reference, either - never watched that film or heard of it - so that may be why. Thank you for explaining to me.

 

[deleted]

no lol meeting no human being would take away this feeling that life is worthless

 

[Weebster]

How did you get that number? Curious - it seems so random.

I can't stop laughing lol

 

[BrokenLine]

Creo que una de las principales razones por las que no lo he intentado aún es por esa conexión que tengo con alguien que amo mucho. De igual manera me apena mucho que esa persona deba cargar conmigo. A veces mi apatía es tan grande que no puedo disfrutar ni siquiera del amor que me brinda. Creo que eso es lo más doloroso, porque es injusto para él

That's the point its not about them carrying you. ideally you would be carrying one another. I don't know what your and his relationship is but enjoy it seriously. There's a difference in him inspiring you and you realizing you want more from life and in life, to doing things to please him. You don't know how he sees things, but if he's there for you that because he wants to be embrace it.
Unfair says who? he's not left has he. Your judging yourself and we're shit judges when it comes to ourselves.

I lost what I had I was stupid to try and say something and it came out as word salad. And well I cant turn back time to fix things, she is so perfectly unique.
If you have the same thing and he knows, enjoy what you have for as long as you have it. And with luck I hope you'll have him for a long long time,
Good Luck

 

[ornitier199]

never say never

Reality says never. Reality is inescapable.

 

[BrokenLine]

That was my husband. I lost him too, and it is the main reason I want to ctb

Really sorry to hear that you lost your husband, She's not the reason i want to CTB, but know I'll not find that same thing again. So just I'm at a crossroads and sadly I just don't have the energy to start over again.