Anyone else feels like life is a bottomless pit?

[_Minsk]

Like its never enough, all the work you put in, you just can't change anything to make you happy..

 

[feelinggloomy]

Exactly

 

[moscowmuffin]

I couldn't have written that any better, my exact sentiments

 

[feelinggloomy]

24/7

 

[divinemistress36]

All the work put in was pointless

 

[Daryl72]

yes, exactly it seems more and more there is no point as I just can't escape the pain no matter what I do or try

 

[ijustwishtodie]

I'm just annoyed at how I'm forced to put in work to begin with. I wish I could just rot away alone but I can't

 

[lotus11]

Feel exactly the same

 

[BrainShower]

I literally wake up with the sensation of falling forever into a black hole, then when i wake up i realize that it is true

 

[opheliaoveragain]

Heard and felt. <3

 

[DefinitelyReady]

24/7

Like in Sex&the City2 movie, the girls were asked how happy they feel every week or something, charlotte said, "Everyday." Samantha was shocked, and said, "You feel happy everyday?" Charlotte replied, "Not all day every day, but at least once everyday."
Most of us here don't even get ONE day a week that we think is worth living for, or the ONE day a week that we get for the living the other 6 days. For the people here who won't live out their natural lives, it's just even worse that we're pitied and looked down upon, because we didn't have incurable cancer that caused agony everyday that was never going to improve, or was going to get worse... Not all cancers are curable, or even manageable, some kill, or make the person wish they didn't have to be alive anymore because of having to live with the cancer. So until mental and medical health professionals acknowledge this, I don't want to hear that mental illness is "like any other disease." I am sick of these fake glossary games. Call a dead spade a fucking dead spade... It sucks that much more that all of the successful ctbs go in vain.

I went offscript... The point was, some of us aren't exaggerating when we say 24/7... and I consider myself one of the luckier ones at that.
I understand suicide is going to apart of the circle of life, and there are always going to be expenses to be "paid" at the price of species staying alive and well, but I consider suicide an epidemic. It gets talked about but then these ludicrous "measures" of hotlines blowing up in our faces, and virtually anyone being able to become a counselor, the same as a cop, is not helping. These hotline numbers being maxed out in use is not "saving" lives obviously since the suicide numbers are still growing.

It's like they want to help everyone except the truly suicidal. Instead of trying to indoctrinate kids with reiligion and shoving the bible back in classrooms (in Oklahoma), why are you not focusing on something worth the tax payers money? Jesus nothing is going to change unless the suicides start increasing (which is what we're supposed to be fighting...) at an everyday rate, more than they already are, or there's a mass suicide unfortunately. It's disgusting.

We're still so far behind than is portrayed in the public as far as mental health. The clinically depressed aren't afforded disability, can't find or hold down jobs, can't take care of themselves, become homeless, then addicted to drugs, etc. I have been told, "I don't think there's anything more than I can do for you." more than once, which I didn't even know they could professionally, let alone ethically say, so why is it "illegal" for them to agree with us when we talk about suicide let alone "assist" us? My mom paid $25 a day for over 2mo when I was 12 (until she pulled me out AMA because a girl beat me up) so she could find her daughter HELP.... (That place ended up being shut down for legal reasons and lawsuits, go figure. Had I know I would've been one of them.)
People are now adults doing the same thing, coming out traumatized and worse than they came in. Then they proceed in the fight to seek help but have to hide the full extent of their suicidality for fear of being escorted away against their will, and having it marked permanently on their record. So do reporters and news report on the struggle that led them to their "source"? Is the focus on how they got this point? Is there note how alarming the rates are? No, it's someone other than the system to blame. There's not a lot of money is curing the worst of depression. When they do find a treatment it's unaffordable, even though it doesn't cost a lot to make... In 50 years will mushrooms be legalized and ketamine will be on insurance? Will that be enough to accommodate our en:environment stresses?

Would it have mattered what era we were born into? I'm just so pissed at the lack of truth and care that's put out in the world on a professional and governmental level. Obviously I've having a bit of a crisis moment. Perhaps I should "reach out." This does not look like a good sign lol. Plus I think I was "forgotten" once again and the "peer support" girl missed my telehealth appt. I could've been asleep... Sorry for rambling like an idiot