Discussion Anybody else solely living for other people?

[sebasto]

I can't think of anything I live for but other people I do not want to hurt by killing myself.

Ah well, food and music is nice too but that's about it.

Anyone else feel the same?

 

[WornOutLife]

Well, I haven't ctb yet because I don't want to leave my dad alone.
CTB means killing him too. (heart-attack or stroke or simply dead in spite of living, if you know what I mean).

 

[lofticries]

Really,really don't want to ctb before my parents die. I've already disappointed and worried them enough. So trying to get out of my old ways so I can at least be functional in life. I know I'll never be happy but will try to be at least content in the mean time while I'm still alive.

 

[Sslsh]

i dont live "for" my parents. It's more like I can't leave my house to ctb as I live with them. I am capable of moving out but they won;t let me

 

[charlotte greentea]

I have a couple of people I live for. I honestly wish I had never met them so I wouldn't be obligated to live. But that's just how it is.

 

[wait.what]

Yeah, pretty much living for other people these days. On good days that's all right, but on bad days I really start to resent them for it. They say they "love" me, but then are okay with making me drag myself around in circles like a half-squashed bug, day after day, year after year?

 

[GarageKarate07]

To be honest I dont think I or many of us know what the fuck we are trying to live for including other people.

1: we all fucking die.

2: this world is shit and we can't do anything about that as individuals or even as a group it sometimes seems.

3: what's the difference between us being hurt when, not if, our loved ones die and them being hurt if we chose to die today?

4: what are we going to do tomorrow? Music, movies, call old enemies/family and make amends, work, vote, or watch tv? What difference would any of that make on "the grand scale"?

 

[russlinjimmies]

I'm staying because I don't know if my mom or daughter could handle it.

 

[LittleBabyNothing]

For my brother, he needs an advocate, i can't trust the system to give him the best.

 

[avoid_slow_death]

My Dad,because he is in really poor health, very depressed and super worried about me. Also, my ex and her little girl. She is incredibly worried about me to the point of being very depressed herself. And her kid simply loves me an insane amount. That said, I am trying to get everyone left to detach from me so I can move on peacefully. Sounds cruel, but I think its the best way to leave people behind.